Did you say it...?

So it's the season when all the tv shows I watch are slowly coming to and end, and season finale galore begins with the much expected cliff hangers, cheers of joy, and most of all, tears of sadness. Last Thursday I watched the season finale of Grey's Anatomy, and all I can say is, if you didn't watch it, you definitely missed out. I know the show has had it's ups and downs, and most definitely its share of cliff hangers, but the season finale was most definitely a HUGE tear jerker for me. I don't wanna go into details because I hate giving away "surprises" I'm no spoiler. But I will mention something that Meredith says in the last five minutes of the episode that got me thinking...and I haven't stopped. I guess you could say as I wipped my tears away, I had an epiphany of all sorts.

"Did you say it? I love you. I don't ever wanna live without you. You changed my life. Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal, work toward it. But every now and then, look around, drink it in. Because this is it, it might all be gone tomorrow." - Meredith Grey

I'm not trying to be a big cheese ball, but after this episode, Ate Paw and I had thee most amazing conversation of life. A talk that really can't be explained except to say that self realization has amazing time, to say the least. I never realized how much I wanted to tell you something until this past weekend. I never realized how wise you've made me, how I can make sense of things, only if the subject is you. I never realized how important it was to me, and how I've been hiding behind this guard I've managed to create around me. We all have our secrets, but it's up to us to take the initiative to say it. But before I can say it to you, I have to be able to admit it to myself. How familiar to hear...it's now or never.

"Love conquers all, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Love never fails."

FRANK FROM POST SECRET

Something weird happened today. I woke up and i just felt sad. I don’t really know what’s wrong but i just felt depressed. I’m happy and glad that my mom is here with me right now but i have this internal emotion of depression. I’m confuse. I’m tired. I don’t know what’s wrong. Help?

I don't wanna wake up one morning wondering what if, what if I told you my secret, would it leave me at defeat? No biggie, no hard feelings, nothing to lose. I don't wanna wake up one morning not knowing the difference between settling, making myself happy, and actually being happy. I love you cousin, but I know there's "better" out there, or for lack of better words, there's "happier" for you. The kind of "happier" that comes with BEING, rather than MAKING. I can't stress that enough that although it may not seem like it's "worth" it to go back into the unknown, I can't say myself that I would regret being sucked into that black hole of the unknown, if I came out with Heaven on Earth. And I know you will to, I know with taking that step outside rather than settling for the inside will work out for you...and me. At the end of the day, it's the difference between if red or blue is worth it, and if red will slowly turn into a blue number 2, but really if you know your own worth, because it's so much more than blue knows. I love you cousin, so just do it...and I will to.